So..I think my best friend, Jared, and I are growing apart. It’s very frustrating. I can’t tell him what I think because I think it would be too much of a burden for him. I think part of the reason, of why this is happening, is because I had to change schools. I mean we don’t even see each other anymore. We’ve only hung out once since I moved away. We usually text all the time but we also used to chat on the phone almost every night. Lately he hasn’t done much of texting or chatting. I get that he gets busy sometimes but I send him something really silly and he doesn’t even comment on it. He just says that he’s busy. I thought he would at least comment on it AND say that he’s busy but…he didn’t..

I don’t know, I guess I’m being a little ridiculous but I can’t really help but worry. He’s a VERY important person in my life. I’m afraid to lose him.

(Sorry for posting something so negative. I needed to get this out of my system and this is the only way I can do it.)

Mood: Scared, confused, frustrated



Break Ups Suck

Hey, guys. In case you didn’t read the title and just for the heck of it, BREAK UPS REALLY SUCK. My ex-boyfriend broke up with me just yesterday and I’m having a really hard time understanding why. It’s really shaking me up because things were going so well. It makes me wonder what I really did wrong. I tried so hard to be the perfect girlfriend but…..for some reason it didn’t work for him. I’ve never really had a relationship like I had with him before. I didn’t fall for his looks (though he is pretty cute) I fell for his personality, first. We both like the same things and I believe he is one of the nicest guys I’ve ever dated. I felt so close to him and I’ve shared so many things with him that I cant even count. I was so caught off guard when he said he wanted to break up, thank god he broke up with me in the nicest possible way. I guess I’m still so surprised that I cant believe it. It feels so wrong to be without the person I have feelings for. Every time I see his face I want to cry. Of course I hold it in because it feels embarrassing when everyone goes crazy and says “WHAT’S WRONG!!!!TELL ME PLEASE!!!!” and it only makes it worse. My friend, unfortunately, saw right through me because she had to say “Go to your boyfriend” right when I just started to focus on other things at that moment. I didn’t know what to say so she saw right through me. I guess that’s why we have friends, they are there to support you and can see right through you at the most  inconvenient of times. I guess, I love my friends because of this ability. I feel slightly happier because of their support.